I have studied your comments, and I have some things I would like to discuss with you.
Since you are headed out and will be doing some serious seat time, I want to recommend that you read another book during your trip.
The book is titled "Love Must Be tough" by Dr. James Dobson
If you have already read it, then take it with you and read it again. If not, then make time to get the book before you leave if possible.
After you have read the book, I will continue with my thoughts about your situation.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.