Day 1: Initiates sex. Day 2: Crabby and unpleasant. Day 3: Withdrawn and antisocial. Day 4: Realizes that JJ is ignoring him and starts acting affectionate in a nonsexual way. Day 5: JJ bores herself and the BB by examining this pattern of behavior in her H once again.
I continue to be in a reasonably good mood, but I wonder if this is an altogether good thing. I kind of feel like I'm taking a vacation from my relationship. I can't really take a strong stand on the sex issue until I get my financial house in order so I find myself humming that old Doris Day number "Que Sera Sera" as I go about my business. I almost feel like I could flip a coin -Heads- I stay and work on relationship. Tails- I take my chances elsewhere-and not really care which way the coin landed.
I was "biologically" horny last night so I MB in the tub. My MB fantasy did not star my H, but it could have. It's like I'm completely emotionally free to choose any fantasy I want and then abandon it just as easily.
I feel so good, I'm tempted to think that I'm "differentiated", but maybe I'm just "disinterested". How can I tell the difference? Why should I care?
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
