Being "in love".

[MJontheMend]

We were both too child-ISH to share that way and to let ourselves see and be seen that way.

I know that I used to be child-ISH or shy in this way myself. I think there was a moment when my children were very young and I had a lot of responsibilities in which I "grew up" and stopped being child-ISH in this way. I suddenly realized that I was a person with important work to do in this world and I couldn't let my own little insecurities get in the way. Ever since that day I have had a sense of self-assurance that I lacked as an adolescent or young adult that allows me to speak my mind or take action in the interest of myself or those I love. Unfortunately, I couldn't maintain the self-assurance I had been developing in the sexual arena since adolescence in the context of my SSM.

I don't really know if I want to have sex with "Snoopy". "Snoopy" seems a little too puppyish for me. I think I would prefer to howl with a fully mature wolf type.