Saturday night was our dog training club's awards dinner. Normally it is at a restaurant in Louisville. This year they held it at a restaurant here in IN close to the river.
The evening was definitely rough for me, I didn't feel like going and facing the two of them yet so I opted out. But I also felt resentful, angry, betrayed feelings again. Discussed that with my C last night. She said the feelings I am describing to her and the times I am feeling them that I am definitely on the right path to get this processed and move forward without the baggage this time. I have progresssed to the point I don't think of them often unless something like this comes up that sort of throws it into my face. I am very glad of that, all it does is mess my mind up when this Cr*p comes up.
T called and invited me to a celebration dinner for S because he is starting a new job. I asked if ok to invite M and he said sure, so M and I went to dinner.
They ended up though with the smokers all sitting at another table so M, another lady and I sort of had a table to ourselves and we were out of the conversation loop with the rest of the group.
It was still sort of fun but not great. May have partially been my mood since I was struggling already.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I have progresssed to the point I don't think of them often unless something like this comes up that sort of throws it into my face. I am very glad of that, all it does is mess my mind up when this Cr*p comes up. 
