Feeling good about completing my assignments for the day, so here I am, taking the opportunity to reflect a little. An interesting quote in my inbox today has triggered this little tangent....

Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Carl Sandburg

So, how have I spent the past year? Although I first registered here in mid-Feb, seems like it took me another 5 weeks to launch my own thread Interestingly, my first set of goals still apply - what does that say about progress

1. Slow down, cultivate patience, expect less. This is a big one for me, as I’ve always been in a hurry, and the take charge type (just to save time). I'll know this is achieved when H has to step in and take charge more often. When I do not have disappointments because expectations (often unspoken) are unmet
Progress here is HUGE. I feel myself more relaxed, and able to sit comfortably with the unresolved.

2. Stretch and meditate everyday – this is good for my physical, mental and emotional well being Yoga helps, I have some specific asana targets.

3. Enjoy the moment – H has never left me, and vows never will, has consistently maintained this to OW. So, I need to make the most of this. Need to identify what was good everyday, and journal Apart from the sporadic wigging out episodes, doing pretty well here

4. Shower H with attention during work day – my previous silence seems to be a source of H not feeling loved We both work from home unless travelling, and even then, we have managed to sync travel. In fact, I worry there is too much togetherness

5. Affirm feel good moments with H – this will take work. We’ve both in the past been the strong silent types, lots of words seen as a bit ‘wet’ – must change this! Doing well here - I reckon NG gets to hear positives at least twice a day - lucky dog


I notice that although NG has been miserly with his words, he is definitely loading on the physical touch. He holds my hands when we are walking about shopping, I get pulled across closer to him when we are watching tv, and if we are not cuddling in sleep, we are at least holding hands. This is far more contact that we used to have, and I love it, and tell him so. Just wondering if he is wanting to do 'different' things with me - nothing that reminds him of the time with ow.

I'm not sure I'm ready to go through all my past threads ala Sage, but was curious to see how I may have changed since last March...

Slowly


A Liberal Allowance of Time