Hi LnL, Michele, Ellie, Pen and Betsey - Thank you so much for your feedback, lots for me to mull over tonight, or this morning I should say, as it is midnight here I'll start with the big one just for now
Quote: Have you indeed forgiven him, or are you waiting till he owns up, and apologises?
LnL - I'm not sure what I'm supposed to forgive - and it seems like he does not know what he should be sorry for. Its like too painful to even contemplate, but I also think it is what gets us stuck. Sometimes I think NG just wants to move on, and wishes the past 2 years never happened. In fact, he has muttered a while ago that he just wants to forget. In some ways, so do I. But I have to face reality that NG is not the person I thought he was, someone I can trust. Even today, his version of facts is different from what I know them to be, which just drives me nuts.
Lots of other points that I will respond to tomorrow. Roll on Friday.
I'll start with the big one just for now 
Slowly
