Hie Maya and Anne - Alas, I have no answers for either question
Thursday was rough. NG promised we'd have lunch together and do some much overdue grocery shopping. (I used to do the shopping myself, in my super-organised days, and then realised that it just gave NG more time to romance ow, so now, household chores are a joint effort). Then as we are having breakfast, NG says he needs to run to a meeting. Now normally this is not a big deal. But after promising me we'll have lunch, he is casual about breaking his word. I'm afraid it just opened the floodgates for me, emotionally. I just could not hold at bay the memory of all the times he has been careless with my feelings.
Of course he could tell something was wrong, but as I was valiantly trying to keep a brave front, nothing much was said. The atmosphere was stilted. We did meet for lunch, then I went off to my work meeting. Did not feel like cooking dinner, so we went out again. A cordial evening, not particularly warm or loving.
I know we'll have these bad moments, but it really was quite scary how quickly my rsentments surfaced. Sometimes I just wonder if we can recover from such a bad experience. It just reminded me that I need to continue getting my own life, and continue detaching from NG.
