Sportster, I know the feeling of wanting to contact H. I had to contact H this morning as I received a letter in the mail about my rent payment being late. He seemed as if I was bothering him and it felt like he was angry at me. I know his dad was there and they were doing a fix-up project so I'm chalking it up to being busy with something else and not really wanting to think about anything else. I also know the confusion of getting mixed signals about R. Up until the day I moved out my H was kissing me good-bye and telling me he loved me on the way out the door to work and two days later telling me that he didn't want to be married anymore. What's that all about??? I only went 4 days without contact, but I only contacted 'cuz I needed to know the information about my rent money. I don't intend to contact anymore this week. Confusionland Park isn't a very fun place to be, but at least we are in the Park together and can help each other out at needed. I feel for your situation as it is quite similar to mine. My H is in a situation that is new waters for him as well, dealing with kids. I don't know how long he will be able to deal with 2 young kids that aren't his as they are quite needy at that age. He has to figure that out on his own. We discussed children and I know he want them, I'm just not sure he wants someone elses to take care of (even friends think this). I don't have much other advice except to keep up the work you're doing on yourself (I'll be doing the same) and try to keep a PMA. Talk later, LAS
