Sorry you are feeling blah, and sorry to hear that your H is STILL talking to OW. I don't think he's gonna take you seriously till some papers are shown , but if you are at all wavering on this divorce thing, now is the time to stop it.But if you are serious (and it sounds like it from your posts, but some days I think you are just so frustrated, you feel this is your only option left)then you have to pick a date, and start stuff rolling. You say you guys get along, have fun together, what is he getting out of OW? I can understand that you do not want to live your whole life in limbo, and at some point this has to improve or you have to move on.
I am so sorry that I have nothing to tell you. I mean it, nothing has happened as of today. I have not heard from him, he has not asked for papers, he has not sent me the money for the dog. But I will tell you what I HAVE heard alot of this week. I have been especially lonely and wanting to talk to him this week. So I have been hearing alot of "See, its been 19 days now and you have not heard one peep out of him. Get used to it. He's gone . No, we don't know why he is choosing to ignore you, and don't have a clue why he has not asked for the papers. But he does not want anything to do with you, its obvious. No, you can't call him.Why do you want to-he is ignoring you on purpose- but do not call him.Believe me, he KNOWS how you still feel about HIM, he knows this is torturing you. He does not want to be with you, he wants to be with her. I am sorry but thats the way it IS. Hey your paths may cross again some time in life , but for now, please don't put your life on hold for him He is not putting anything on hold for you". Hmmm...except for those papers....
Tomorrow I am going out house hunting again,maybe it'll help me GAL if I am in a new enviroment. Take care, and remember as long as he is still there, you always have a shot at fixing this. You see him every day. I know this is tough on you.I know this sounds stupid, but I know as long as I had him here, even if he talked to her everyday (and for a while he did that, only not in front of me)I could still try and work on my M. When all this happened to me months ago, I did not have this BB or you guys , or all this info on 5LL, or DB-ing. So, I did not use our time together then properly. Well, tomorrow is another day. I'll let ya know if anything happens.
I needed a laugh tonight, so i rented Blue collar comedy tour. Pretty funny. And I treated myself to chinese food. Tomorrow after house hunting going to my sisters for dinner.
