He should definetly have gotten it by today. he only lives 35 minutes from me. He probably got it yesterday. He may just mail the amount back, or ignore it all together.I am really missing him. Its amazing to me after all I've told about how bad this has turned out and the mean things that got said and done, I STILL miss H. My friend says every time you strt thinkin about your "image" of h , think of something bad he said or did, it may help. I do, and it does, but thats not what i want to be my memories of him! I know I should be concentrating on me, but I can't help wondering what they do at night, are they affectionate with each other, is her H being a pain in the ass again, are the kids getting on H's nerves yet, or is he simply sitting at home in his own apartment some nights? Does he ever think about me in a loving way, does he miss me? Is OW better than me in the bedroom, you know the old what has she got that I don't. I wonder if he is ever sorry he let himself get this far into her sitch or was he already in love and he knows to have her he will just have to deal with all the drama.Too may questions.No answers. I just keep getting this feeling that he may try to contact me on Saturday. I don't know why, I just have a feeling. I will try to have the papers ready (they basically are, I just need to fill in one or two things) if he does ask, but if he doesn't you KNOW I am NEVER gonna mention them. Hey you said you were not gonna bring up R talk but thenm tell him his ulcer may be from double life! While it may be true, you can come off sounding like R talk, or leading into.
