Well its been emotional few days. I decided not to make any decisions about staying or going. I am willing to give this one last try. H has been so emotional,remorseful, saying how sorry he is and how for the last 6 months he has been home he has been living a lie. He keeps telling me it has been EA since moving home but not PA. I am putting that out of my mind because it really doesnt matter to me at this point. If we are going to move forward and this marriage is ever going to work he has to cut off all communication with OW and be honest with me. He swears he will. My S 10 went to H office yesterday for an hour or so. Last night when I was putting son to bed he mentioned H desk and pictures etc. He then tells me there is a picture on H bulleting board that OW's son drew for him. So I was bothered by it and mentioned it to H and thats when it became very emotional H said it was a while ago and he has had no involvement with OW kids and that he understands how it would upset me. He is sorry for everything in the past. I told him if he is honest with me moving forward then what happened in the past is over. I did say though if he is truly honest then things that happened in the past are about to come to light. Especially if OW gets vindictive etc. So we hugged and cryed alot. We are both scared and I wonder truly if H can be honest with me and break it off cold turkey with OW. For now I will wait and see and I will continue to snoop so I can be sure. If I find out more lies that will be the end for me as it will mean H truly cant tell me the truth. wish me luck
