I ache to hear some sort of confirmation from H about our relationship or the future. But as far as actions and daily life, things feel pretty normal.
BUT, just got a call from my son, he got home from school and H wasn't there (he's off on Fridays). Son wasn't concerned, just wondering what's for dinner.
But I get that clutching feeling in my heart and take a peek at his account...of course it's payday for him and there is a $250 cash withdrawal showing up.
Again, could be anything, but that's how his club visits always start.
I hate this...he could have gone to the grocery store for all I know. Will I ever relax?
I just feel like he's biding his time till something better comes along.
Slowly all the roles we act out become our Identity,
And in the end we are what we pretend to be.
-Jerry Cantrell
