TC, Bill, Dawn, thanks you all for jumping in here....I so appreciate the support. I am working on processing your ideas, and will post more about that today.... Just wanted to journal a little.... things were quiet last night at home...I stayed pretty backed off of H, I don't think I said ILY at all but was pleasant. H was pleasant as well....if it was for all the crap going on under the surface, I'd think things were great (I know that probably makes no sense, but anyway). We were both restless for some reason at bed time....h got up to go to the bathroom, and actually asked "can I bring you something"...that surprised me, I don't recall him ever doing that before... about an hour or so before the alarm went off, I got up to go into the bathroom, and H asked "are you ok?"....that is unusual, and obviously he was lying there awake, which is also unusual.....
I'm reading "you and your husbands mid-life crisis" and it looks like it will have some specific suggestions a little further in. right now I'm reading about "living in a triangle" (the A) and it sure describes the sitch to a T.
One thing I've learned from that book and from the mlc forum is that it takes about 5 years to go through mlc, and that there's generally a period of 3 - 5 years of discontent before it hits. I can see that looking back...and I'm certain we're at least 2, more likely 2 1/2 or 3 years into the mlc itself. I just don't know if I have the patience to last this thing out.
