I thought I'd post a little about yesterday evening before I forget. After all my panic during the day and H's gritchyness in the morning, it turned out to be a pretty good evening. It is possible ow was in the office and H as well, I never pursued checking it out for sure, I couldnt see I'd have gained much...I rushed home from work to pick up S for supper...only one problem, S was busy with his new lizard (early xmas present) and didnt want to go....so, I told him I was going back in, and his dad would be home probably in an hour, would he be ok alone, standard Mom stuff....and as we are talking, in walks H...a little earlier than ususual even...said he decided not to go shopping because it was so cold...said he was freezing, and he'd go another time---he initiated nice hugs and kisses, I told him I missed "talking" to him...he said he was sorry, he'd been really busy...talked about the co-worker's hair having so much static electricity it was "sparking"....he could have been w/ow, could have not been, I don't know, but he was genuinely warm and loving...
I told him I had plans to be gone awhile and left...I was gone about 2 hours, did some more Xmas shopping...brought home hamburgers for H and S. When I got home, H was outside doing chores. S and I stood in the kitchen talking and H didnt' know I was there...he called from the laundry room asking S how long I'd said I'd be gone, S answered she's here, H came in and looked and said "oh, I couldnt figure out what was going on" ??Don't know what he meant by that.
Then H made a nice fire in the fireplace (without being asked) and sat beside me on the couch (without being asked) and put his arm around me as we watched tv...At bedtime, H caught me off guard by intiating ML...I really didnt expect it.... Afterwards, I commented on being surprised, and H said "see, no pressure really works, when you push you slow down the process"....That struck me as eery, almost like he's been reading the bb....I don't think he has though... I just laughed it off and said "there are times when I have to grab you"....but obviously, he's plainly telling me what works.....
This morning before work he was cheerful, and sent me one very short email early just saying he'd gotten to the office and to have a nice day.
So we'll see, we have a week off together...hopefully it will go well...
I cant help but wonder if he is responding already to my baby-step GAL efforts. I think that must be what is happening. ALL I've done differently is back off and away a little bit at a time. That and carefully avoid fueling his temper tantrums.
If this pattern continues, I will gracefully eat crow as you all say "WE TOLD YOU SO"
Merry Christmas to those of you I don't catch up with!
