ouch! i feel like i'm back sliding big time today....emotionally that is. I'm having a very hard time...H is really irritable this morning, called me "lazy" and all kinds of nasty little digs...last night when he got home he was pleasant and chatty, however. He did suggest last night that I call in sick to work today....????? warning sirens always go off when he does that; then he tells me this morning he may not have time to email or respond to email because he is so busy; Then he tells me he may be late getting home tonight...because he has christmas shopping to finish up. I did ask how late he was thinking so I would "know what to expect as far as having supper ready"...and he said "maybe 45 minutes; I guess I can call if it's going to be later than that"... I always believe something is up with him and ow when he starts suggesting I call in sick at work....plus his other actions lean toward making me think that. I bet if I check the computer, ow is off today....H may have taken off and not be in out of town office, but I hate to even check. I hate to even walk over to the other building and see that she is not there; (I will have to go over there soon).
HELP....I could really use any words of wisdom anyone has out there. I thought I was making so much progress towards detaching the last couple of weeks and then this hits and I feel like it's back to square one.
I keep trying to tell myself it really doesnt matter. That eventually that is going to blow over, that it is blowing over/out, but it seems to me as though it is taking forever and a month. If I was really detached and focused on what I need to do, it wouldnt matter.... I have so much I want to do with my life, and I am trying to focus my attention on those issues today, but am REALLY struggling with not being upset.
Question: from everything I have read/studied, all indications are that if H was going to leave, he would have been long gone by now. Does anyone here have an opinion on that? Concur or not?
In "not just friends" it says "the odds greatly favor the marriage IF BOTH partners can be patient".
HELP....need words of wisdom, or 2X4, or whatever.....
