Hi Dawn, I just missed you! well, hopefully we can make connections tomorrow. I always appreciate your input SO much! I have to say, I agree with your statement that I probably don't do much just for me...I have someone come in and vacum and dust every 2 weeks, occasionally buy a CD, but not much else really. I like my hair, although I can never get it to do what the "pros" can...I do have to say that by the time it was done Friday, I was ready to leave, kind of at the "ok, that's enough, get your hands off me" point....it was interesting, as it turns out, the gal who did it is from H's little home town, doesnt know H, but used to do my MIL and SIL's hair! Frankly, when she found out who MIL was, (you know, the Atomic one!), my hair turned into a major project! anyway, I did reschedule for 6 weeks, I just won't mention to H what it costs.
Last night was kinda weird...S had to be at his concert earlier than expected, and of course that's the night H gets home late....I thought H seemed kinda "uptight", but didnt pay a lot of attention...at the concert, it was so nice to have him sit by me...I kept thinking of how sad I'd felt by myself before. It was also nice to be able to fit comfortably into the chairs!!!! We took seperate vehicles, and H said he had to leave right after the concert, and hurried off (he did need to work on a garage door he somehow messed up)...I was taken by surprise but just said "ok, catch you later, we'll be along soon"...S & I got home about 40 minutes later, and H hadnt started on the door...he came downstairs from the bedroom when we walked in...so, probably on the phone w/ow...but I ignored it. I did think he acted kinda sad in the evening, kinda withdrawn, but frankly, anymore I'm almost relieved when he does because I've come to realize that as a rule, that is a good indicator that there's trouble in paradise...
later in the evening, I thought H had gone to work on the door, I was in the laundry room, and asked S if his dad was working on the door, S said he thought so, and I commented "I wonder if he needs help"...then I said "well, I guess he's a big boy, so I should leave him alone unless he asks for help"....and of course about the time I shut my mouth H walks out of the bathroom that adjoins the laundry...oops....but he didnt seem upset. Lord knows he could have heard me say worse...
He's here in this office today, w/ow, and I did have some irritation when I was coming in from a meeting at noon and saw her car in the lot, thinking they were probably having lunch together. I've had NO email from him at all today, which is the 1st time in MONTHS...but I'm just staying backed off and trying to stay cool, calm and collected. Actually, I'm leaving for the day as soon as I finish this. So, we shall see....my hope is that there is trouble in paradise...
Oh, yeah, we were talking this morning before work, and H commented about a female co-worker who is so into herself there is literally no room in her life for anyone/thing else...H commented she is "another fine product of South High" (ow's hi school)...kinda hit me, because ow is the only other "product" I know of he'd have been referring to. H was talking about the outlook "gals that age" have nowdays....it was interesting, I commented "huh, that is new to me, I wasn't aware of that being a prevailing attitude today. I wonder how I missed it, just being 12 years older? and H said, "I don't know, but I'm sure glad you did"...I took that as a positive. H left the house this morning while I was still upstairs for the 2nd day in a row....more of staying backed off...I only hope it works!
I had the weirdest dream last night, but need to pick up S, so I'll try to write it down tomorrow.
