Quote: H again the other morning reached over for a hug - and I sort of lost it, not really loud, but I did say 'Why is it that you are able to ask for a hug when you want, but ignore me when i say I'm unhappy, or need to talk to you about the kids, or I want a kiss' He just got mad, understandably, and got out of bed.
Please get this: it's NOT understandable for him to treat you this way. When you're hurting as much as you clearly are, it is not understandable for your H to get up and leave the room. This is cruel and wrong. You deserve comfort and kindness as much as anyone!
Don't start beating up on yourself because you're not actively DOING something about leaving, etc. right now. It's a huge step. You're just getting used to the idea. Once you're really clear, something may give on its own. Sometime things work that way. Just work on being clear and being kind to yourself. This means no mean, judgmental, put-down internal dialogue. You've got a LOT on your plate. (((((FF)))))
