If nothing's going to change? Get out. I'm not kidding when I say that I need now to find a way to support these 4. Things are fairly calm, and the kids ok right now, but I saw what they had to deal with over Christmas, and no kid should have to feel uncomfortable around their Dad.

What's the breaking point? I'm saying right now that when the need for me to get out is greater than the need for me to live in this house. Yeah, I'm pretty fused with my house . Meaning, there's immediate danger, or, I finally realize that it's more damaging for my kids and I to stay in this M long term. there's no way I can see myself making enough to stay here. I'm not willing to put in that kind of work, especially when my kids are young.

Yes, I'm ambivilant right now, but less so than I was a while back. Yes, I do hope that it doesn't come to that. And yes, I'm serious when I say that I may have to draw up D papers before H realizes how serious i am.