Had an apt. with a psychiatrist yestersday, at least I've finally found someone to talk to. About half-way through my story, he stopped taking notes, just listened, eyes getting bigger, his first question 'and Why are you still with this man?'
His comment, there are lots of men like H in Finland, (this was no surprise to me) he asked, and wasn't surprised when I told him what area of the country FIL is from (this is an area particularly 'notorious' for suicides and domesic violence. The men pride themselves on being 'strong and silent')
Anyway, he was able to give me a lot more info on what resources are available, what I can and cannot do, etc. I felt comfortable talking with him.
I'm sure this has been the easy part up 'till now.
At home, H goes from being nice one day, to days like Sat., where he got mad at the kids for not thanking him for cleaning up spilt juice, I had to stop him from grabbing S4a by the arm, hard, and two of my kids came to me at different points during the day and said they didn't want to live with Daddy.
We finally got snow again last night, and right now, at dawn (it's almost 9am) the sky is a powder blue, it's really spectacular.
