FF: Sounds like the crisis counselor was a total bust. And I know how you were looking forward to so much more from her.
I think you're right about making a decision. You'll know when it's the right time and what decision you need to make.
I remember when I was getting ready to divorce my XW. I had an attorney draw up papers, was in the process of buying a different house, etc., but was holding off because I didn't want to spoil the kids' Christmas. I figured I'd wait until after New Year's. As it happened, my XW told me to get out of the house on December 7. I filed all the papers the next day.
You might want to get your ducks in a row, too. See an attorney. I would hope they would have some better advice than your counselor.
FF, I am so sad for you. All this crap going on in your life and so far from home, too. {{{FF}}}
