Looking backward...but only to move forward TWO

[sage]

Just a quick one 'cause I'm at school (a few hours until my second to last class is DONE!). I just wanted to journal.

I had a horrible, horrible day at work yesterday. It was a combination of being tired, tired of the place, sick of working against so many obstacles and then being cricized (albeit nicely) by my boss. I'm irked at my team and irked at myself. Anyway, h and I had a plan to meet for fancy drinks after he had school. I left work late and was stressed and sad on my way there.

What a bright light h is! We met up and he was great. I felt relaxed after just a few minutes of being with him (the giant drink hadn't even hit yet!). I mentioned that I had a terrible day but didn't want to talk about it because I was afraid I would start crying.

Anyway, we had a great time. On the way home he asked again if I wanted to talk. He did such a great job of listening and making me feel comfortable. At the end of the conversation he said "Please keep me in the loop about all of this. I want you to know that I'm here for you and behind you 100%. I want you to come to me and talk to me about this stuff". I swear, it was just what I needed to hear...something about how/what he said just let me know that it's ok for me to open up to him.

We also exchanged valentine's gifts. He bought me some awesome chocolates and a beautiful chenille scarf. I gave him a watercolor kit and a book on it! (He had mentioned it as an interest).

Anyway...I'm journalling this more for me than anything...I want to be able to remind myself that we HAVE come a long way in the communication dept.

Sage