Hi Sage..I just wanted to drop in and say I have been reading all your posts because I am in the same place as you are now with your R. Everything your write I could have written!! You have done such a good job, and this may sound petty, but it is nice to hear that Im not the only one who struggles daily with trying to believe that our R is really moving forward.
Some days are better than others...as I am sure you know...and when things are good, they are so good, but it only takes the smallest thing to make the "fear" or "panic" to come back into our lives....sure does suck sometimes....
Anyways, just wanted to let you know..I know EXACTLY what you are going through...