Hi Sage! Have you ever noticed that how you feel about H depends totally on yourself. For example, one week you're feeling all lovey dovey/open and you think H is the greatest. Then the next week, you feel critical and so you start picking out some negatives that H is doing i.e. being quiet, distant, sad. It occured to me that here I am the one feeling distant, critical, etc. which in turn colors how I see H.
Same goes for the pit in your stomach. Only YOU can control the pit. You KNOW you can make it go away at times. What are you doing differently when you don't have the pit? What are you getting by allowing yourself to feel the pit?
It is apparent that it doesn't matter how many W's of A that your H gives you, or how much he tells you what he is doing, etc. It all depends on how you are taking care of yourself. You don't NEED WOA. I thought about the 5 ll's and tried to determine which were REALLY my ll's and which can be lived w/o. I don't need WOA to survive, I don't need gifts, I don't need services. I appreciate all of those and love WOA, however, what I can't survive without is PT or QT.
You can do this. I know how the angst feels and it SUX! But, you CAN control it! You have it in there!
