Hi Sage - Wow, some amazing things here, some resonate so much over with me.
Quote: The other thing that's been sort of weighing on me is that I feel like I've been shying away from talking with h about some stuff..not bad stuff (no R talks! or crazymaking) but just feeling shy about asking him how he feels about things...so much of it is because of MY ASSumptions about how he'll react...and that's not fair to him and it creates this crappy dynamic.
I kinda feel this way a lot lately, but in my case I know its too soon. Hve you tried testing the waters a bit? Maybe H is ready, and is just waiting for cues from you?
Quote: One big thing happened last night..h and I decided to look something up on the internet...I came around to look at his screen and he had his email up so I said "whoops! sorry! and walked away". He called me over, sat me down on his lap and said "I don't want you to feel that way..." then he gave me a big hug and said "I want to be open and honest with you always". Not bad, not bad at all!!!!
Can I say, well done you, and I'm just sooo envious - NG still 'escapes' his email screen even as he sees me in the vicinity. Ugh
Good to see just how far you have come, Sage. The rest of us need the inspiration!!
Slowly 
