I still don't know how you keep the hours you do!!!!
Hey, just think of the catch up you would have had in the past! Now there are days I don't even post on my own thread. I go through threads MUCH slower!
It really is nice to hear from you, I love your stories and sense of humor.
Want to share something that you probably know at least the first half of as you know me pretty well.
In the past I would have felt a bit of hurt that you hadn't dropped by. Some emotional growth towards maturity I think and NOT personalizing work have brought me to just having been glad to hear how you were doing and no hurt or personalizing that you didn't drop by!!!!!!!! I LOVE IT!!!! Do you know how much it frees me up not to personalize everything? I still do it, but at least I watch for it and I monitor my self talk almost all the time, especially at work.
I have caught myself so many times saying in my mind, I feel like crying. I now stop that and say, I feel like smiling. Would you believe it does help?
Have a wonderful New Year!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Some of my accomplishments I realize would not have been for someone more comfortable with themselves and dealing with life. But I have always rather hide from life. Now that isn't an option and it is scary sometimes, sad sometimes and sometimes fun!
I think you got moved just a tad before I did but it was pretty close. We were I think doing some shopping and decorating discussions at the same time.
I am thinking positive thoughts for 2005 and wishing all on the bb a fantastic 2005!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I decided to start with not an overwhelming number of goals and see how I fare.
Later I will add steps under them to make them more like baby steps for me!
2005 Goals:
To not NEED another person to fill a void, to fill that void with my life and happiness so that if there ever is another person they don't become the center of my life. I think this is the big over all goal and the goals below are the steps to work towards accomplishing this state of mind and enjoyment of my life.
Continue to work on the black/white thinking and emotional reacting. Focus on Thinking first, then Act if necessary.
Continure monitoring the self talk and re-directing it when necessary
Spend more time with my friends
Become more organized
Work with Shara on herding
Check on working Tara in agility
Work Frostbyte in obedience
Take Shimmer out more
Keep my house cleaner, Flylady here I come.
Keep the shelties groomed better.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Ms. Pam -- oh, my, oh, my. What does the new year bring? A list of wonderous ACCOMPLISHMENTS penned by my pal, Pam (and they make my heart sing!!!) and then a list of goals for the new year -- an awesome mix of the practical and the "emotional" -- hey, how about some whimsy, too?!
I'm psyched, psyched, psyched for you, miss!
Happy New Year!!!
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Hey with you two and Patti aren't you worried I will get a big head?
Thank you very much, it feels good that people that saw me in the beginning can really tell a difference.
One of the people in Newcomers I was chatting with said they wanted to go back and read my threads. I said, No, you don't. I realize that I am ashamed of them. They are such an emotional mess. But, I need to get over that as I was where I was and it wasn't by choice I was that way.
My C last night also told me she can tell in the short length of time since I started seeing her that I have made progress.
I feel better. I was wondering if I feel better because now my system has leveled out where for several weeks the Zoloft was taking me up and down as I was doing the dosage wrong?
Whatever it is I like it much better!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Well, I haven't even got the breakdown of my goals posted and already taking steps that meet part of them!
Saturday night T sent me an e-mail and asked how about getting together for dinner and margaritas as he hadn't been able to celebrate the New Year. I think I have posted before he is G's friend, (mine as well now ), that is in the wheelchair and just has a super attitude!!!
He is starting a second business of managing models and doing photography. He has done some awesome shoots and has several models now that he is managing. He and his partner were booked to do photo's at a Country Club New Year's Eve dance and he said they were super busy!!! I think he also wanted to celebrate.
I knew M, (neighbor), was probably going to come over after getting home from work so I called her and asked if she was interested in dinner. She was and had forgotten how to get to the restaurant so she came by picked me up and we met T. Had a really nice evening! Since M drove I got to help T with the pitcher of margaritas that he had on the table before M and I arrived!
Then last night G had asked about getting together for dinner. I thought I was going to be doing something with my van but turns out dad was busy so met G for dinner. He offered to pick me up but I told him I would meet him. I said see you no longer have to pick me up to get me out of the houses. He laughed and said very good.
So not even a week into the new year and I have been out with friends twice already!!!!!!!!!
Shara has a herding lesson scheduled for this Saturday afternoon and that morning FB has his first obedience class.
Right now my van won't start. Dad is going to come down and we are going to try jumping it and taking it in to see what they find is wrong with it. Hopefully nothing serious!
I am working on the steps to go under my 2005 goals and close to having them done for at least the first month of the year.
My C session I think went pretty well the other night. She said she can definitely see progress and that was only our 4th session. I only go every 2 weeks. She is going out on her own and said I am welcome to continue seeing her or she can refer me to someone else at the office I am seeing her at now.
I asked her if she felt she and I could work on me or if I needed to see a different type of therapist. She said she felt no problem for us to work through my stuff but if at any time she felt or I felt I needed something else she would definitely refer me. She will also be a tad less expensive on her own than what I am paying now.
Sunday M called and came over and we hung pictures in my bedroom and my office room so the house is closer to being sort of complete.
I did work on boxes in the garage a bit on Sunday as well. Actually started the van backed it out so I had room in the garage and when I went to pull it back in is when it wouldn't start.
So wow, writing that all out looks busier than it feels!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
They are such an emotional mess. But, I need to get over that as I was where I was and it wasn't by choice I was that way.