Being busy is great, but being too busy for yourself is dangerous!!
Afterall, YOU are the focus of your sessions, not the C. Make those sessions count by readying yourself. (Make the C earn her money too! )
It probably wouldn't take you too long if you just gave it five minutes, first thing in the morning before your day gets too crowded, if you just write down whatever came to mind upon waking, like: What do I like about myself at this very moment?....even before you get out of bed!
Maybe you could reward yourself with something extra for breakfast!!for doing your homework.
Waiting until you are in the "right mood" or have nothing else to do, will never happen!! Life has a way of filling up time, when we aren't looking. Take contol of your time and give yourself this gift of self-awareness.
I too have been fortunate to have found your smiling face and words of encouragement when I needed them most!! You are a caring, sensitive person who gives everthing she has to those she cares about!
Maybe another question she will ask is, what do you NOT like about yourself? This doesn't mean she is not solution oriented. Sometimes it's good when you first start with a therapist, to just let it all go, talk as much as you lke for awhile. She should begin to focus in on things after just a few sessions.
Your C is right about it taking two to make the M what it is....It is never just any one person's responsibility for the relationship. You may have done some things wrong, we all do, but D is not without responsibility also.
Writing things down that you would like to discuss during your sessions is an excellent way to stay on target. I would suggest that you don't wait until the day before, to start compiling a list.....Write things down as you go through your week and as they come to mind. This way you won't forget to remember and you won't be as disappointed when certain subjects aren't covered.