Life, One Chapter at a Time

[sage]

I feel I have made progress but days like yesterday and actually today more so, (I suppose because we were polite), just sap my will to plan or live for a future right out of me.

Why does it, Pam?

What are the thoughts that are running through your head that are keeping you from being engaged in your future?

If you "listen" to them, what do they consist of? Fear? Anger? Despair? Tiredness?

Would identifying the underlying feelings help? (I know what I think the answer is to that!).

Also...we've talked about this before but could you let go of the need/desire to label D either "good" (the way you he was when you married) or "bad" (the way he is now)?? We're all a combination of both ( ) so even if you DO succeed in classifying him for a bit, he'll try to move into the other bucket, no?

Here's what I wondered...if it turns out that D "isn't the man you thought he was" does that make YOU afraid of making a wrong choice again? Are you questioning yourself?

Sage