Got a really nice e-mail from Zoo this evening.

I wouldn't worry too much about what David says or does. He is just lashing out. You are too easy to take his anger and frustrations out on and he still avails himself of it when he can (he is probably fairly aware by now that J won't put up with it).

He probably got the cell bill...lol. Good chance he figured you just did it out of spite, ya know? It doesn't matter that that isn't the case....his perspective/brain sees it otherwise.

Seems to me he still wants you to take care of everything as usual....it is what he is use to. I would just tell him "look, this is what YOU wanted, it is your responsibility to take care of now." Leave it at that and say nothing else.

Look at it this way...what affect does anything he has to say to you truly have on your life now? Yes, it might sting a bit but what true bearing does it have? Is it going to make you lose your job or house? Remove the food from your table? Is it going to cause death or dismemberment?

They are only WORDS bandied about by a sad, messed up man who seems to have lost all of his purpose and spends most of his time feeling sorry for himself more than likely. In the end...words can't do sh*t...they are just sounds vibrating against your eardrum and then carried away by the wind.

Chin up sweetie and think of all of the GOOD things that have been going on....you have a wonderful new house, Breeze is on the mend, you have new friends and nice neighbors...heck, you even have a new van :-)

Your life is moving forward in a positive direction and you are SOOOOOO much better off then you were a year ago. It wouldn't surprise me if D actually RESENTS you for being able to move forward...I don't think he thought you were capable of it.

Much love,
B


Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"