Nice to see you again and I am glad it is in piecing. We have both been through so much and I don't think there is anything harder to get over than betrayal. I know how you feel and I feel it to.
Give yourself time, clarity comes with time. You have been such a trooper and it is ok to just take time for yourself right now...I think I should follow my own advice!!
There are some really great people over here in piecing, I know they will be able to help, they certainly have helped me.