Hello All, Well I have been doing alot of thinking lately and have realized alot of things.
1. My bigest mistake when the bomb dropped was alouding my self to became angry and bitter.
2. I need to focus more on the postives and stop dewling on the negitives.
Postives things I see in my H- He is helping alot more around house. 50/50 in fact I think he may even being more then his share lately- ( he got laid off last week) He is still atending C and NA ( altough last night he told me he does not think he needs to go anymore, Which maybe he is right) He is not spending money on things we do not need- Wow it is amazing how much farther ahead you get went you both have the same goal. He is learning to dettach and not being offended by the fact that I can t bring my self to "get back together yet" . we are still "just friends" ( does that not sound stupid after being with some one for 3 1/2 years)
Changes I need to make ( but dont know how) We are in Limbo- Things seem to have gotten better and better but now seemed to have just stopped- Like going up a hill - we are half way to the top and now we have stopped- well aleast we are not going back down- I rather be sitting in the middle waiting for a push- then slowly moving back down.
So, I really do think it is up to me at this point- I know I have not been meeting his needs and I no he needs reasurance that what he is doing is working, but I am still concerned about getting back together. I know this is a two way street but I am having a hard time. He really has done a 180, and really is bahaving like the man I agreed to married. My sweet H.
So anyways I have decided to move over here too piecing in hopes it well help me move up the hill or get off.
