I remember looking in the mirror and seeing someone there I didn't recognize. It WAS my eyes. I'd lost something that I never thought I could get back. I thought I'd have that vacant look forever and that I'd never be the same as I once was.
We all process this in different ways, and for me, I let H go. You have to make your own decisions, it's so hard either way.
But I will tell you that you will return. This is temporary and one day you're going to wake up and start feeling better. You will get yourself back.
