I don't know what happened somewhere along today, but I just feel so much better now!
It's like the blanket of depression was just lifted off of me. I printed up something from Pam's thread about practical steps to combat depression like diet, excercise etc, and intend to read it through and put some of the ideas into practice. I literally felt paralyzed by the blues the last couple of days. Not nice.
(I never suffered from 'emotional' PMS before, had very severe physical sypmtoms in my youth and early adulthood, but things seem to have changed of late. Instead of severe pain, I experience bloating and perhaps mood change? This weekend could very well be a case of PMS, I don't know.)
H rang from his place this evening to speak to D. He sounded normal and cheerful.
Ellie, I suppose I really should be very happy that H has at least decided to come and spend Christmas with me and D. D chirped up, why can't Dad come and spend even more days here with us? I said he could if he wanted... then stupidly added that it just seems he wants to spend more time with other women these days. That was earlier this morning, before I had shaken off the pall!
By he way, the slippers are a big hit with D and she was showing them off to her friends this evening, and I felt, well, D likes them, they are merely cheap slippers, she is growing so fast, they won't fit her next year anyway. Why spoil her enjoyment? I thought it would be churlish to do anything about them. D should never have to pay for all these adult screw ups.
She is SUCH a sweetie, she has put up a little hand made 'mail bag' on the Christmas tree, and tells me to look in there every day for a message - just little affectionate notes with a drawing. The best presents ever!
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
