Hi Ellie

Your idea for D to keep them up at her Dad's is a brillilant idea! Only, I have to keep pestering D to keep ANYTHING on her feet on our tiled floors, and she seems to have taken to these! On the other hand, it is much COLDER up at H's place.

Forgot to say, last night after I went to bed the phone rang and woke me up, but I didn't answer it, ditto this morning, I let it ring a few times before answering to H. It's the most mystery I can manage these days, much easier than looking good, dressing up and going out with guys!!

Even D commented that I looked tired at dinner today, and I have had a big spot come up on my face too, great!

The positive that H is here over Christmas? I hope it turns out to be a positive. That H doesn't try to go off for alone visits into town.

Of course, he STILL hasn't mentioned when he is going to have D over the holidays. Do I have to ask him again? I want to get away to a friend's place for a couple of days. Perhaps along with another friend. I don't want to be hanging around here, alone, thinking of where H and D will be and what they will be doing and with whom.

And I know it would be WAY to much to expect him to think about ME and what I might be feeling like this holiday season.

Where are my assumptions Ellie? H could stay here at this house and see more of his daugther, yet prefers to stay with OW 1 and her son at their place. I can read my H's body language like a book. What have I assumed?

Earlier this year he posted to a website that OW 1 (who he referred to as a girlfriend he had 'once' had...) as someone who he would never go out with again. He said all kinds of uncomplimentary things about her to me, she was a fantasist, liar, unstable, etc, and here he is 'friends' with her again. It is easeir to keep someone out of your mind when you dont' know them, this woman has been in my life for ten years, she was in hospital with me when I had a miscarriage, we've spent New Year's together. We've even swapped notes about H trouble with each other. It is a very private and horrible violation indeed.

Livnlearn

"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates