I figured your visit to my thread was invitation to join the party over here - and with all those festive decorations you put up, who could resist.
I'm sorry to hear how Blue you are. Upcoming holidays can certainly be hard for all of us - holidays are hard on most people and in our delicate state - especially difficult. Here's sending you powerfully good wishes!
I've been reading back a bit on your threads and you've been through the wringer. And with 2 OW's H has no room to be jealous of anything you might do. I need to read up a bit more - but know that I'm a big supporter in any way that I can be! Totally