I hear your words and know in my heart that they are true, but it hurts so darn much sometimes. There are times when I feel like I can't do this (marriage) anymore because I can't stand the pain of knowing what life can be like and not living it daily. But at the same time I feel such a powerful desire and continuing love for my wife. I feel like I am being pulled apart between this unrequited love (which is love nonetheless) and that part of me that just wants to fly away and be free to live my life to the fullest without the daily pain of rejection.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
"There is NO WAY in hell I can get through the rest of my LIFE feeling passionless. That is too depressing to even comprehend" This is my life mantra. I cannot ever go back to the numb, self-denying existance I was in before this summer. I have to fight through the pain of rejection each day and try to remember that despite everything else, I am alive, and I am aware of myself, and as long as I keep fighting, I have a chance of being happy (not a guarantee). Once I give up, that chance is lost.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
Nice to meet you. Do you have a thread that explains your story? You say former LDW, what is your current status?
YES that is the same band and they are absolutely AWESOME, especially for those hopeless romantics out there. That song you mention 'Free' is one of my other favorites of theirs. It is off their album "Music for the People." I can't think of another song that captures the longing of the human heart any better.
The song I posted the lyrics to, "Flames", is more of a sex song ('just put me inside you' is pretty clear), but it still has that same sort of longing that is in every one of their songs. Just like the group Keane LFL and I have been discussing, VAST always makes me just cry my heart out every time I hear them.
You ought to go to their site www.realvast.com and just listen to their music samples. Again, if you are a hopeless romantic though, be prepared to have your heart wrenched out of you.
A good song if you are thinking of starting with the Cure that is apropos to this topic of broken-hearted longing would be 'Apart' off their "Wish" album. The lyrics follow.
he waits for her to understand but she won't understand at all she waits all night for him to call but he won't call anymore he waits to hear her say forgive but she just drops her pearl-black eyes and prays to hear him say i love you but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize but she won't sympathize at all she waits all night to feel his kiss but always wakes alone he waits to hear her say forget but she just hangs her head in pain and prays to hear him say no more i'll never leave again
how did we get this far apart? we used to be so close together how did we get this far apart? i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand but she won't understand at all she waits all night for him to call but we won't call he waits to hear her say forgive but she just drops her pearl-black eyes and prays to hear him say i love you but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart? we used to be so close together how did we get this far apart? i thought this love would last forever
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
Here's a great song from the Six Feet Under soundtrack. Loved that show. This song was playing in the last few scenes of the last show. Speaks to our yearning for interpersonal connection, love, friendship etc. Not so much HDvsLD but still applicable. Warning for Globule: Will induce crying.
Sia - Breathe Me
Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, Yeah I think that I might break I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me
Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me
