Please stop trying to forget what it feels like to be alive. 'Cause that's what that feeling is/was Couldn't have said it better myself Lil. That is exactly how I feel, even in my worst of times, these feelings are better than being numb/detached/boring. Our M was D-E-A-D and I wasn't even really aware of it. Told myself that was normal, all M go thru this, blah, blah. I still rationalize like that sometimes! It's a bunch of BS!!!! There is NO WAY in hell I can get through the rest of my LIFE feeling passionless. That is too depressing to even comprehend
