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[MJontheMend]

Sorry to hear that your night sucked last night. I have heard the piece o meat comment, too. I wanted to shout back, Oh you poor baby!

I mean, sheesh, in the spectrum of wifely abuse I'd say this was one of the more pleasant forms, eh.

LOL

I know. It's not like it was damaging to my self-esteem. I think there are not a few men out there who would readily tolerate a wife who's just looking for a "piece of meat" every once in a while (okay,okay 2 or 3 times a week, but still..). It's just depressing to know that his mind still works along those lines some times. It's just another excuse he can give himself for not wanting to have sex with me. Really it's the perfect excuse. If he tells himself that it's "okay" to be LD if I'm being an insensitive slut, then it will always be okay for him to be LD because I'll always be doing something that can be interpreted as slutty and/or insensitive. It's much better than his "You're too fat" excuse because I easily blew that one to bits by getting in shape.

I hate writing that I don't accept him the way he is. It seems too harsh for the way I feel about him and the way we live and interact. But this is a block I have not been able to move past.

I can relate. A situation I've found myself in frequently since Mr. Wilson turned into Mr. Cuddles is that we'll be getting along wonderfully, maybe even cuddling and joking on the sofa, but I'm afraid to try and take it up a notch because I don't want to "ruin" things. It's like seducing my H is some delicate procedure that I have to be at my best in order to not botch, like brain surgery. If I'm not at my best and I try to seduce him, it goes poorly and I guess I'm more like a butcher hacking at a "piece of meat".