Quote: Is it possible to have a great marriage and NOT put our spouses at the top of the list?
No.
Is that what you do with your wife? No.
You profess that you will leave her someday if she doesn't live up to the standards you have silently set and that she knows nothing about. This is not putting your spouse first. This is WANTING a great marriage but being unable to muster up enough courage to take the necessary steps.