I really feel like I am just a "backup plan" on the back burner. I think the whole options open is just a way of being kept at arms length while she goes out and plays.
About 4 months ago both of our respective leases expired and I was looking for a 3/2 apt so we could work on rebuilding our relationship slowly but we would at least be doing it together and raising our son in a better fashion.
I told her that with my job she would be able to go back to school and work only parttime if she wanted to and she could concentrate on her schooling.
She elected to re-new her lease for another year in her own 1/1 cause she wanted to be on her own, party and do her own thing, but she still says she needs me. ????
She knows deep down I want us to work and I do believe in us, afterall we shared 9 years growing up together with each other. I do love her dearly, I just want to spend a little more US time and rebuilding what we have rather than the opposite, however it takes 2.
