Wow! I can really relate to this post, HP. Everytime I get to the place you seem to be at today, I have this little nagging thought that intrudes. Tell me if it sounds at all familiar. The thought is that if I try to convince myself that I can be happy with things as they are and repress my "need" to be desired, I will only be able to maintain this pose in the absence of any sign of desire from a man other than my husband. As soon as that happens my faux contentment will fly out the window. Therefore, in order to keep myself happy in my cozy little "take care of the missus but show little desire" marriage, I will have to avoid any situation in which I might sense desire from another man. Guess I need to make a trip to Burkas 'R' Us .
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
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