I am going to post my weekend update here since I am suspicious about starting new threads.
We had a great one. Now here is the unusual part: There was no sex.
What was different about this time, you ask? Well, for starters H was sexy and playful. He did an outstanding job of keeping the mood just right. Even though there was no time to ML, I still feel close to him. An interesting thing occured to me last night--I really didn't do that great of a job in meeting HIS needs this wkend. Not that he complained and I'll betcha dollars to donuts he didn't even notice, but in assessing my own behavior I see some areas that need approval. It really is a see-saw. When he pursues me, I stand back and enjoy it. Evidently he does the same. We need to get into a more balanced state of relational equilibrium where he gives, I give, he gives, I give. Don't get me wrong--we are old pros at living together and having a happy life. I'm specifically talking about the sexual R. It is in a constant state of imbalance.
At any rate, it was an excellent weekend and I'm looking forward to ML to him again soon.
Oh for all you who are wondering--yes we finally did the oral deed Thurs nite but I couldn't really enjoy it. I don't know that this will play much of a role in our future encounters. This whole episode has left a MAJORLY bad taste in my mouth. I cut him off after only a few minutes because that old Head East song was playing in my head "Saved my life, I'm going down for the last time.." Ok, that last part was an exaggeration, I didn't really hear that song, lol, (that was mostly for Choc's benefit:) but I couldn't enjoy it nonetheless. Oh well, I'm certain that we will find a way to work around it.
