I absolutely understood NOPkins. I am aware that what he says (not ready to jump into relationship because of the stress and pain) and what he does (not even worth reapting myself) are lies, deceptions and games. I am sure that he cannot wait for me to be out so he can do whatever he pleases without feeling ackward and guilty. He was very clear in the e-mail I found about his plans so it's not surprise or news to me what NOPkins is saying. Except that sticking it out would be more difficult for me and it's not what I need. I need to take care of myself now, he is responsible for his own actions and that's my motto.