I will stay home as long as necessary (i.e. getting papers in order, findig the place I really want to live in etc) but not passed it. I don't find it being easier to be around him. I have too much resentment and anger in me that surfaces every time I see him. The lies and deceptions of the whole family put a lot of things in perspective. You said it yourself: he does not sound like a good human being. I feel that the love I have in me and the mourning after loosing it is for someone I thought I had. Maybe at the beginning he was a different person (or maybe I was just blinded by my emotions) but whatever caused him to react to my actions the way he did, to bottle up the pain that he has in him caused him to become someone else. Someone that I would have never consider a possibility to be the love of my life.
