So great to have you back. Wonderful to read your thread and then.... that "oh dear" moment. I thoroughly understand the desire to UNDO those minutes. Ugh.
Try not to beat yourself up about this. There were so many other wonderful memories and experiences that you shared.
That said, I think this is (sadly for you) a wonderful example for ALL of us about having fixed expectations. And of having expectations without letting the other person KNOW.
Who's to say what romance is? Maybe for him, sitting in the mountains with you and getting a New Year's postcard from home...well that may have been very romantic for him.
I am not lecturing. I know how often I have flashed my disappointment to my H. I know the feeling of wishing more than anything that I could call it back.... Breathe and move on. Mostly, forgive yourself.
You have been missed. Oh my, how you have been missed. Welcome home.
