I just got back from movies, drinks, and late-night falafel with my MF. It was fun, Maltese was fantastic (as was This Gun for Hire), and I got a check-up message from S. Before I left, I sent him an e-mail at work saying I was going with MF, and to join us if he could. So at 11:15 I got a message saying "Hey, I'm home, I guess you aren't back from the movies yet, maybe I'll see you when you get home. ... I'm hoping."
So it was 1:45 when I got home, and I just came to my house (for newbies to my thread, S. lives three townhouses down). S. hasn't had the key to my place these last 3 days, because we had houseguests who needed an extra set of keys. So I am home, and haven't called S., which I imagine will be a source of consternation tomorrow. It's just so late, and I could go there, but I didn't, and now I'm home, etc etc.
Anyway... still struggling with the less than stable R, but things are OK. No final thoughts on Christmas yet, though S. assumes we are going together. I'm still not so sure what to do. If he can cite friends picking up on our tension as a reason not to introduce me to them, why the hell would I invite him to spend a second Christmas with my very special, loving, and wonderful family, whom I cherish, admire, and adore?
Does anyone have some thoughts on this? I'm just too close to it.
