But I think S's greatest fear is that the minute the Pachelbel Canon* stops playing and the bridesmaids have processed, and the double doors open and I stand there on my father's arm (swathed in a fabulous green dress), rather than the trumpet voluntary he'll hear the JAWS theme music and by then it will be too late. I do believe that S. wants the family and the nice life with a lovely wife, but I think he is scared of me. I can be a difficult one, Merrick, and while I play all sweet and I'm on my best behavior 'round town with my DB buddies, I've got fangs that would reach across the Brooklyn Bridge right now and nick your arm as you sit working.
Jin..you had me in hysterics with this above comment. I was told by the counselor and by a friend of mine, that the EXH was also afraid of me. He wasn't man enough to take on someone with such a strong personality (the Scorpio in me..sigh) I am also known as the 'sweet and innocent' one, but I too can turn into a barricuda when I am upset. I start swinging (figuratively) and don't stop until I am exhausted. Trying to catch myself now. But I do know that I need a man who can put up with me and not just SAY he can. Actions, my dear, actions. You do sound good and your relationship does seem to be going well - just slowly and that is what is best.
