jennifer, beleive me, I have those shredding teeth too. But the more I DB, the more I feel them straining on my lips to get out and get a good rip thru H's heart.
"Am I really doing this? This can't be the Jennifer I used to know and struggle with. You ARE doing this and this shows how much room each of us can grow if we're willing to look within and commence the journey. " Good stuff here! Merrick is on it, and I believe his rabbit analogy. Fear is a big one for everyone. If we can cut back on fear -and I love your nopenalty rule for car conversations about R too-our own fears and keep things safe for them, then we can go farther. But boy is that hard!
I am still DBing for sure, I think I can hear someone's words, "still early days, dear", as I am just now accepting and beginning to actually see that he wants out, something most postes have to do more quickly when an OP is involved (and one may be involved here, I am not counting that out). Anyway, Jennifer, your threads of thoughtful experiences and your patience with others, and frank advice offers much to others!
Thanks for sharing all that you have been thru, your journey is really exciting. You may not see how far you have come since June, but I can!
