My half-hearted update is this: S. and I continue to struggle. We are getting ready for Vermont, for which we leave tomorrow night (same story, I pack the car, pick him up at work). I decided not to see him today, and he seemed perfectly happy about that. I think I’ve exhausted him lately, as he has me. I am just going to avoid all R talk, at least until after TG, and then let it wash over me calmly if it does arise. I’m taking my yoga stuff, so at least I’ll have an escape. Also, we’re taking my kitty, since the couple I live with are going away, too! So I’ll have my big fat kitty to escape to when I feel like biting off S’s head.
We had a reasonable discussion Sunday morning about R stuff, which I am simply too exhausted to go into here. Suffice it to say that I felt a little validated – one thing he said was that he’d “paid an emotional price” with me before over something that he couldn’t figure out how to do (something I needed from him). He sounded at the least compassionate about it.
