As promised here's my scheduled update...

Week #5 and the hubby came through for me again (no pun intended). No it wasn't mind-blowing, earth shaking sex...this time it was pretty much just to keep the schedule. But for me just having the physical contact and the fact that even though my H was exhausted (we both were really) he still made the effort meant quite a bit....but then I choose to recognize the "effort" as meaningful too.

To be completely honest with you I was fighting sleep myself...and he really could have just waited me out if he really wanted to but he didn't. He even recognzed and apologized that he wasn't "enthusiastic" about it, but that it was just because he was tired (fyi, he'd been outside in the cold wind on a tractor all day working on our property)...I'd say he was justifiably pooped! I was just proud of him for not using it as an excuse this time to put ML off.

Saturday he surprised me yet again...Mr. "I don't like to talk about sex" actually asked me what my fantasy was. Then told me that of course he couldn't guarantee anything if it included whips/chains...but that he'd give it a shot. To be really honest with you guys he surprised me to the point that I couldn't respond...yes, he actually shut me up LOL. He has absolutely no idea how simple my "fantasy" is at this point...but I will tell him. I should have told him then, but I couldn't get the words to come out (that's something I'm working on myself) I'll get a chance to revisit that conversation tonight or tomorrow and I'll let him know....my fantasy is simply to have him come to me to initiate, without it being a "scheduled night"...just completely suprise me and to be honest ML in my favorite position. I'm sure once he does this my fantasy will change

I'm not sure if it's a combination of our scheduled sex and his C that prompted his question or whether it's actually attributed to either...perhaps it's just him coming out of his shell. Either way...he surprised the heck outta me!!

I can tell you guys one thing for sure. Since we've been having our scheduled encounters we have become closer emotionally/physically. Something as simple as hugs even have more feeling behind them. Obviously we're not at the point that I would like to be...yet...but I can truly feel a difference in the EC that we have and I believe he feels it as well, he's loosening up "emotionally speaking".

Last night after we ML we were joking briefly about some people who would want to do that daily or more than once daily....he said to me "I know...you're thinking "I wish!"" To which I replied "no, not really...that's never been me. I've never wanted that type of frequency so I hope you don't think you have to live up to that." Even though I've told him that before, this time he seemed to really hear me.

Now, I know there are MANY of you who would LOVE to have sex daily...but to be honest, that's not me...which is probably why I have been considered LD in other R's. I am quite content with 1-2 x's per week, which is what I told my H last night. I also jokingly reminded him that as of last night we had ML almost twice as much as we had last year. He replied "oh man, that's sad!" LOL.

So, like I said...no, we aren't yet having the type of sex that some people would find "acceptable"...but right now the benefits of our scheduled sex far outweighs...none.


GEL - Looking forward to a much happier Christmas than last year

Well behaved women rarely ever make history!