H just made his daily afternoon call. I love hearing his voice...even when it's a little down...it's just good to hear from him.
He was basically apologizing. Said he didn't know what had gotten into him this morning. I told him that I didn't mind. After all, that's what I'm here for. H said that's why he loves me so much...I stick with him even when he gets in these moods. (Hey, I honestly don't mind the moods, as long as he's not being mean or running out on me. It's part of being human.)
I did mention BIL2 called last night. Said I thought his reason for calling was just an excuse. He's been concerned about H and I. (Isn't BIL2 a great guy?? ) H said that was one of the things that really gets to him--when his family starts coming down so hard on him. So...going to make sure that I don't add any more pressure.
He also said he might just go visit his father while in CA. I know he's kicked this idea around for some time. I agreed that it was a good idea--help him work through whatever may be bothering him. It's less about seeing his dad just visit his dad...and more about trying to figure out some stuff for himself. Maybe unbury some things so he can work through them.
H said again he hates that he gets this way, and doesn't understand why. He really, really wants to join the army--I think he's looking forward to jump-starting his life, plus taking a time-out to think. (Sounds weird when considering that it's basic, but he loves physical activity.)
And he told me he didn't think there was anybody else that would put up with his nonsense. He said ex-gf wanted to, but he just didn't want her. I told H that wasn't true...there are other people...but I just love him. He told me that he just didn't feel like being gushy right now, and I said that was okay. But he added he did like the affection from me, just didn't want me to do it because I'm trying to make him feel better. So, I can try being more affectionate, just no expectations. In other words...the best kind.
He gave me lots of WOA, which just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It let me know that I am doing what's right for me...
I love hearing his voice...even when it's a little down...it's just good to hear from him.
) H said that was one of the things that really gets to him--when his family starts coming down so hard on him. So...going to make sure that I don't add any more pressure. 
In other words...the best kind. 
